Looking back again

At the side of the sea…
Amidst…all that scream of the sea waves..
I did sit holding his hands… on the rocks…
In my dreams..
Under that old tree…
Under the shadow of it that saves….
I did sit with him… heard him fondly talk…
In my dreams…
In the rustling of trees…
In the old diaries…
I did want him to find me…
In his dreams…
In the silent breeze..
And every time he’d sneeze…
I did want him to want me…
In his dreams…
A penetrating pain…in my heart though…
Troubles me for long still…
The celebrating eyes ...that my love does show…
Though against my will…
Has now taken the place of incompleteness…
And filled it up with trust…
That I may even be no more…
But my love will never rust…

Just one desire I shall make…
Before closing my eyes…
Wherever above I shall stay…
I’d love to see him truly smile..

-Alisha